In a memory..........

Memories are part and parcel of our lives, be it good memories for us to ponder    and smiles back at those happy days....bad memories are meant to forget... and take it as a lesson and never to repeat....but its the painful memories that we can't erase no matter how we tried the pain will always be there as though it just happened yesterday! To me the most painful memories are  the passing away of my loved ones......the ones that are most dearest! in 85 my dearest dad ...passed away at the age of 72.. though a strict man by nature but he always have a soft spot for me whenever I'm in a spot...understands me alot and just so appreciate my cooking...to him there is no other better person who can cook for him....then six month later it was my dearest  grandma at he age of 82 and this time the more painful it was when I'm not there when it happen....I was with my sister thousands of miles away in Belgium just at times we packing  to go back for good after 4 years. That dreaded phone call from mo brother just brought the whole world seems to stop and my legs going numb....just imagine I'm not there in her final days nor there for her funeral..it was so devastatingly sad,  only to come home to see her fresh grave. Three years ago the same painful experience when this time it was my beloved mom..at the age of 82 also,after battling 2 years of cancer,Ya Allah  only god knows how it was  only those who have  been thru it will know.....  but somehow with the nature of her illness we are in a way kind of prepared for the worst, only maybe in denial....she passed away at SJMC surrounded by all her children and grandchildrens,.......my dearest dearest mother....then about  nearly two years ago this time my  dear bro-in-law passed away at the age of 49 such a young age  and so very sudden  ..of stroke a very massive one...... no warning  no expectation from the family that hes going after five days in the icu... though al little tempremental man but he is a man full of goodness ..kind hearted man ever ready to help be it just about for everyone in need of his help,the many kind words of from those who knew him, friends , neighbours to the burger boys in the neighbourhood  justifies it all......and to me personally  more than  a  bro-in-law but just like my very own brother......to these loved ones you are forever remembered every moment of the day esp in  my 5 solat aday without fail. ALFATIHAH,,,,  for the living life has to go on  and make every moments that we still have to good use in th eyes of the Allmighty!!!! for the family today I have prepared them fish curry ........ sambal sotong and eggsoup with petola......till then byeeee