Monday, January 31, 2011

A loss.......the feeling of it

Ever felt the feeling of being denied.........whatever it is....losing something  that belongs to you.....and you are willing to swear to god thats its yours and just because  you don't have it in black and white.....and no backup....your words are being refuted......ah well anyways its just worldly things..... its best to let go rather than to blow things up !!!! maybe now in this time nothing can be proven  but  it will in the hereafter(akhirat)whoever is innocent shall prevail !!!!!but for now its a pain.....

In my lifetimes I've had my fairshare of sadness.....losses......hurts.....being denied all that makes up what life is all about.......Yes ...happiness too not denying......BUT I wonder if ever my mere existence....in this lifetime..if at all I'm loved for what I am OR just for the contributions of my selfless self...if ever at all...I wonder.
Sometimes the feeling of being so lonely.......so alone in the true sense of the word is so painful.... I guess the ever real love that I ever had was from my late mom........As a human being ...yes... I am not perfect I have my flaws too but TO those around me ALL I  have  are my boundless loves for everyone .....being taken for granted or not I LOVE ALL OF YOU and let whatever remaining days or years  Allah have set for me......all I have are loving  all of you gettimg the same back in return does not matter much to me....

Lately I am unable to upload pics  of what I cook for the family for some  unavoidable reasons  but will do so again once the times permit.......so there goes...... for now......byeeee

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